Where is the LOVE.

I've struggled a little lately. I don't know if its the fact that this is the week before nature will bless me with my monthly woman gift, or that its winter and I've been cooped up a bit lately or that Tyson hasn't found a job and its stressful on us making him question where he should be living, or that work is a little intense and I get anxiety thinking about all of the things I need to do. Or maybe its all of it. Wrapped up in a little Xmas gift of stress?

Last week Claude invited me to a little girls' gathering hosted by one of her friends. Sure! I love meeting new girlfriends. I was really excited until I walked in the door and like a wave in the ocean total insecurity washed over me. The apartment was absolute perfection. The women were in skirts, sweater dresses and fairly dressed up compared to my JCrew cords and cardigan ensemble. I didn't know a single person and I guess I was just a little intimidated. What's funny is how easy it can be once you just jump in with both feet. For the first five minutes I listened, nodded and didn't really say much. But I started talking with one woman, and then another joined the conversation and, I dunno, things took off. And of course a wine lubricant never hurts but after a good hour or so we were all sitting huddled in the (fabulously decorated) living room just chatting away! So many strong women in one room: a photographer, a gal who is starting her own business/website/service, a personal chef, a real estate agent. I really had a great time. Corduroys and all. Why is it that sometimes we can feel so insecure? Its odd and the funny thing is, I know I'm not alone. We all feel that way from time to time.

Tonight I left the gym - Yes I went, and I'm damn proud of myself considering the 21 or possibly lower temperatures - And I was feeling an overall sense of readjustment. I felt more at ease. More trusting in the fact that I can't control everything around me and the way things will turn out, so I just need to let go and see what happens. And then Black Eyed Peas' song, "Where Is The Love" came on the radio and I was all crazy jamming and shit and realized that man, there are larger things to care and worry about in this world. Life is pretty great if you just sit back, enjoy it and spread the love.

"Where Is The Love"

What's wrong with the world, mama
People living like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here living
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all

People killing, people dying
Children hurt and you hear them crying
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questioning
Where is the love (Love)

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations dropping bombs
Chemical gasses filling lungs of little ones
With ongoing suffering as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the loving really gone
So I could ask myself really what is going wrong
In this world that we living in people keep on giving in
Making wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respecting each other, deny thy brother
A war is going on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm getting older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money making
Selfishness got us following our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead of spreading love we're spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feeling under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself

Where is the love?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJpyskHMwRs